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So blown, tired of , life, things happening, things changing, being older, nothing seems to be getting better, everything seems to not be right, why, I dont know Some people are cool wit living, and change, me on the other hand, So many things i need and want, know how to get them, but am too afriad to reach, something is goin to happen, and its not good, I can feel it in my soul, I want to many things, But dont go for them because i dont feel worthy, am I, I dont know if its me being lazy, or jus something inside me that is holdin me back, i have so many emotions, never know where to direct them, emotionaly drained, feeling that is insane is sane, feeling abandon from the world, In more ways then one, Loving love so much that I feel it has failed me,
never understood,but do i make it hard on myself, I jus want things to be ok, or do i really, is the drama what keeps me going, cant be cause i cant stand extra, the things i want r simple to me but just what are they to thee?