how

i laugh so hard...
i begin to cry...
i sit sigh ...
and ask myself...
who what when and why...
did it have to come to this...
low blows...
behind empty kisses...
lies turn in to wishes...
what is this...
jus how did it come to this...
unbeknowst from the first if...
i stop taking ur calls thats how u know...
telling me that explanation has turned in to sensation...
creating...no sense...
im trying to reach...
but how far are u really...
seem more distant then 35days...
i daze at the maze my life has turned in to...
battered and confused...
i have misused...
but never have i refused...
so just how did it come too this...blankness