up late

Too many options...
Not enough choices..
Inside my head i here voices..
But not one of reason...
The seasons about to change..
But will all those options...
Be a factor after...
Will everything remain the same...
Wishing i new the outcome..
Before hand..
Wish i had a plan..
For all the pain..
I feel that imma bout to endure..
Like a revolving door...
I explore life on both sides..
Hoping to find my guide...

from ur mouth..
to my heart...
your words hit me like a dart...
unable to control ones feelings..
knowing mine hit the celing..
then feel from the sky...
harder then what i thought...
as i think about my task at hand...
never realized how much was really in demand..
feeling stranded...
like a motherless child...
a person with no direction...
a dick with no erection..
trying to find my protection..
from the darts thrown from ur mouth..
trying to dodge them...
but these words were ment for me...
sent for me..
fuck it ill just let em be..
cause wats for me ill eventually see

..how i feel

You gotta be fucking kidding me..
I mean after all this time..
Me trying, begging and pleading..
And needing you..
To just be..
I mean seriously
You gotta be fucking kidding me..
Life as I seen has been a dream..
And now you wanna be on the lets make up team...
Been playing all by myself all this time..
Me on Me..
Now you see..
Why the fuck I gotta be..
Unresponsive to get one..
Where the fuck is this coming from..
I forgot how to respond..
So I just go with the flow..
I dont know how much longer I can go..
The fact that you dont see shit is fucked up..
Says more then enough..
Its gonna take more then a kiss or two..
A good fuck..
Good luck cause that train has derailed..
I hate to feel like this..
But shit is real..
You gotta be fucking kidding me
Im realizing that I lost myself in you..
Dont get me wrong the love I have for you
I less then Pretend..
But thinking of all the lies I
Began to say again..
You gotta be fucking kinding me..not on a day like today