mixed emotions

What do we call this..
Jumbled twisted...
Tryin to shot and score...
Like a mystic...
I missed it...
I kissed it...
Now what is it...
Beautiful...
yet
Overbearing...
A chick like me aint use to sharing...
Im staring myself in the mirror...
Asking what has become of me..we..thee.three...
I see what i wanna...
Or maybe its really...
Thee...
Trying to conclude..
Thats its more then we..
May the force be wit..
whatever it may be...