maybe

H2O..
These are strong words..
To admit would be in vain...
This shit is beyond insane...
Tryin to remaine in manner that is resonable..
Im confused you know...
I can act if shock is not a factor...
Because no matter what is said or done...
Its not the facts your after...

Stop playing the blame game and look real deep...
Tell me what really is it that you seek...
And dont say you dont know stop playing meek..
Reach inside of you dont think just feel..
Whats real to you really...
Has truth ever been that important...
I need you to see what you really see..
And just let it be...
If ist right let it be...
Wash away all that carried unnecessary misery...
And if not the stop faking...waiting for something to be mistakin...
So that is it easied...when u decide to leave
Stop being so foucsed on surrondings and look at me..
Better still look at you...

I cant say that wrong hasnt been done...
On both ends but do we live in that sea of misery..
Or do we come out and dry off and try again...
Will this cycle of what if, maybes, and idks ever end...

mixed emotions

What do we call this..
Jumbled twisted...
Tryin to shot and score...
Like a mystic...
I missed it...
I kissed it...
Now what is it...
Beautiful...
yet
Overbearing...
A chick like me aint use to sharing...
Im staring myself in the mirror...
Asking what has become of me..we..thee.three...
I see what i wanna...
Or maybe its really...
Thee...
Trying to conclude..
Thats its more then we..
May the force be wit..
whatever it may be...

thinking

Im seeing
Actually seeing
Starting to be more aware
Of my surrondings
And of ones actions
Everyones
Things are changing
People are truly being
Revealed
Understanding slowly
What everything
Is about
Which is which
Route
Being apart of
What is happening
Being surprised by many
In ways that arent of words
Put in a positon where
I realize that things
Really actually effect me
Mentally..
And all the others lly's
I have yet to know if this
Picture I see is as clear
As I want it to be
Mabey its the hope
In me
Or maybe its a monet..

...

Somethings must come to an end..
I must say...
Understanding yourself...
And whats for you...
Somethings..
Feelings never fade...
And understanding whats...
Real and whats fake..
Can sometimes be a big mistake...
Take 2...
Then add 2...
And you will get 4 everytime...
But it dont add up to me...
Being put in this place...
Where I have to choose...
It seems too have been choosen for me..
Somethings are just to be...
For one reason or the other...
From one person to the another...
Seasons dont matter...
They just keep track of time...
And when its up...
Things begin to change...
Its never easy...
But necessary...

U..G..H

Urning for consitancy...
For you to just love me for me...
I cant take the silence...
Of what lyes beyond the lies...

The elephant in the room...
There is no disguise...
But from the eyes..
Is where truth is...
Im glad that I am geared up...
And well suited for this fight...
That dosent seem to wanna end...
No longer lovers...
Bearly friends...
Convince is what seem to come in mind...
Trying to find the siver linin...
Tears have dired up....
My exterior is sheilding....
My heart is in defrost mode...
The old shit is just getting older...
I dont think nights could be colder..
Nothing seems to be definte...
Security is as distant...
As the loves resistance...
I dont know how much longer...
I cant travel on this path of nothingness...
I protest that love conquers all...
And through communication things wont fall..
But puzzled at the point of it all...