Really....?

How could you....
Open the flood gates...
Of my heart....
Without staying...
Constantly saying...
How could you...
Act as if nothing
Happpend...
Like the spark...
Never began too...
Elumilate into....
A flame...
How could you...
Treat me like...
A game...
Fling...
Like there is nothing...
Convince
Comes to mind....
....At a drop of a dime...
Not the first time...
So maybe i should say...
How could i.....

...Ok so

I guess when u don lie
Everything seems suspisous
Conspicuously....
Nothing seems true enough
Im am all on actions
Words mean nothing to me
I don't hear i feel...
My gut tells me
What and what's not
Real...
Tired of being reeled
As if i orbit...
Tired of the
Bullshit...
And trying to
Understand it..
Commanded
From the start...
In the mist of it
Something fell short..
Still tryin to sort
Between life
Trying to stay stong...
Beginning to again feel weak...
Unexplainably meek...
Trying hard to reach
In me and seek...
So badly i want peace....
Why can't it just be seen...
Love and understand....
Less then demanding...
Bringing nothing but
Hugs and kisses..
Trying to be Ur
Mrs..
But i always seem to hit
And miss...
Not even a kiss...
Trying to find
Our bliss..
Enough of this..
I can't do it alone...
Certain things should
Already be set in stone..
Feeling....a
Lone me some
Mercy...
Show a lil compassion...
Why does it seem like...
Im asking for ...
A star from the sky...
To be by my eye....
To never cry...
Just to be safe by
Yourside....
Continue to reside..
And love me beyond the sky....
It seems so hard..
Why..?

....

Getting straight to the point

This is not edited

Not gonna sweat this

Jus gonna think

And laugh

Because I said it

Before it even began

The same was as befor

Open a door that

Was only a game

To explore

What more

Can I do but

Sigh

I don’t even know why

I try

I need

True

Now I know

Why

The lie

Is more likely

But is frighting

To me that

I have in me so

Much honesty

So for

The ones that

Cant handle

I sit back

Spark up and light a

Candle

Fskw

Feeling some kinda way
But why
This is how they always
Do
Fairytales don't come true
Although
I believed it to be
Shame on me..
Raw love only exist
In the pits of me
I realized no one can see
Or handle what i give...
The love I give
Is to let live...
Light is what shined Through
When i first made contact
With u...
Through the tunnel
I can no longer
See...
Losing you
Seems like my only
Option....
But not again...
This time I
Want it to stick...
But i feel sick.....
Cause its not the same
Things have changed
But it not my place
To say cause i didnt
First place them that way...
Im lost..
In thee overall...
Can't u see...
But i guess not clearly..
So now i will cease and Desist...
Until it returns to me..
Ur bliss...
Feeling some kinda way..

Racing

I wake

My mind jumps

To thoughts of

Thee

Trying to get a

Clear picture

Too see

Thee beauty

Racing

My nerves

Never seem to

Calm

Eyes

Racing

Never seem to find

You....

That is until they

Are closed

And there is

......Thee

Standing

Wating for me

In a way that

Seems so clear

Near

Far

As

A star

Reaching out

Never grabing hold

Held

Hollllllddddd...

On

What am I doing

Persuing

Something that

Seems so natural

See...

Only thee can see

Or is it just free..

For all...

If so

Another one

Has falling

Restrain from calling

............

Melting is what

Takes place

In space

My area

In myspace

Racing

And bracing

Embracing

The Racing...

Ugh

I dont understand

But I guess it shouldnt

Matter

Batter to

The cake that

Didnt rise

To thee ocassion

Im blazin

Hair rasin

Trying to decide

Inside my brain...

But my soul anit

Sayin the same

Boggled...

Hard to swallow

Yet still feeling

It flow

Nothing is

Certian

To many

Things hidin

Behind that

Curtain

The exist

To no be

Spoken of

Not as gentle

As a dove

Naive is something

That I dont do well

Thats why my heart

Is living in hell

Thats just as well...

Hurt

I dont understand

But I guess it shouldnt

Matter

Batter to

The cake that

Didnt rise

To thee ocassion

Im blazin

Hair rasin

Trying to decide

Inside my brain

Feeling worst then

Hunger pains

Secretly

 I am ashamed

Of letting

Something get the best of me

This is more then a test to me

Feeling more like my

Destiny

 No need for empathy

 Cause what's gonna be will b

I've learned that

But not so easily

So use to know

Whats not for me

Not sure what is anymore

Obsession...?

Thinking....non
Stop about you
Smelling you
Through miles
Of fumes
I consume
Thee
Speculating from a far
Staying up to
Par
Not missing a beat..
On the back of ur feet....
Never do i compete
But only seek...
The ways of u....
So that when its
My turn to speak
Ur attention i will have...
Something i
Won't have to grab...
Like a cheetea i creep..
I have a confession
some may think is obessison...

but i call it progression of getting to know u...

trace...

What to do
Dont know how to consture
I so confused..
Scared why...
Times flies...
I can wait till next lifetime...
I cry
Cause i cant scream
It seems that nothing
Is in its right place
Everything
Obribiting
As if we were in outer space...
What's the case
Large organ race...
To a pace..
That no one can trace..
Can trace..
U can trace...
Can trace?
No mistakes...
Body aches....
I can trace.... ones trace...
I can't seem to get to its resting place..