Happy?

50/50
Huh that shits
For the bird
Haven you heard
The rule
You know the one
Where your in a relationship
And shit is suppose
Be spilt in half
Meaning if you get
Two I get two
Also
Not I get two
And you get three
I don’t understand
Why they even
Try and trick you
Into thinking that shit is true
One is always gonna do
More than the other
And we know this because
Oppisite attract
So.. you just tell me
If we are not the same
We don’t always want the
Same things
I jus sometimes wish
One jus one person
In this would be honest about
The fact that relationships
Are work
And like work
You never get out
Of what you put in
Especially if your not
In love with what you are
Doing..

Im here

Through the pores
Of your soul
And the depths
Of your heart
If no one is around
If there is no sound
When the days get cold
And shit gets old
Morning dew is gone
And the sun still dont
Shine
The will is no longer
Of life
If nothing seems right
Owls dont who..
They how..
And birds dont sing
They scowl
With your tears
Of joy and sorrow
And the blood
That runs in your
Vains..
When sweet is
Sour..
If your breath
Becomes your
Last..
Future becomes
Your past..
Even if you think
You cant
And you feel like
It wont matter..

Reach out to me....

Ok...

I cant lie
I know Im
As wrong as two
Left shoes
I got the blues
But I know whats best
Everything works both ways
So if I were that important
I would know
Because u would show
Not gonna chase you
I am the chasee
But I will accept my
Part
On us falling
Apart
But if you want me Im here..
If you need me ive always been there..
Why does it have to be a one
Way street
You ever think that
You might be the reason
For my insecurity
From queen to phesent
That feeling not plesent
Confused is how you left me
Spinning..
And to think..
I was ready to give up
And let you win
Glad I thought
Again
But then again
No matter how much
I try
Inside of me you still
Win
Cant shake it...
The feeling..
Tryin to be real
Tell you how I feel
But yet and still
Its about you
Well boo-hoo too you
I have feelings too
And it jus seem
That really they dont matter
To you
And even if they do
Just let em be..

fan

Nothing to do..
This is true..
Who woulda knew..
But the fool..
Nothing to construe
Cause your past confused
Not to abuse..
But things
Are used for true..
Misused aint new..
Looks like u need..
A rescue...
So much to be learn...
One of those am'n ones..
Am'n and aint gettin shit done
But yet and still Im your number
Fan...

untitled

Thinking of a master
Organized organization
Trying to bring
Giving cause it feels
G
O
O
D
How couldn’t
It be that
A plethora
Don’t see
The beauty in
Whats should
Be known as
Truth
Sweet as
Suga
The feeling
Could never
Leave me
Pleading to see
What it is
That thee see
They see
Tryin to figure
We?
Between
Stars
And the deepest s
Sea
Somewhere there has
Gotta be
Clarity..
　

too consture?

So whats it gonna be
Understanding thee
Through the days
Tryin to see clearly
But through the snow
It aint easy
So breezy
Trying to break through
The wind
So cold yet meek
Seeking what seems
To be a never ending
Mystery
Finding a new
Sexuality
But not
Sexually
Sensually
Nothing making
Sense to me
Try to explain verbally
But nothing seems
To come to me
Slowly but surely
Coming into me
But what I see is not
Clearly what I am use
Too so what am I too
Do..who what have knew

Striving to construe

Someday

Seriously could it be
From me to thee
One could only dream
Not even in the day
Only if my eye are closed
Do I see
Magically
Surrounding me
But suddenly
My eyes began
To flutter
And light shines
All memories
Of what is true
Bliss slips into
Whose
What’s and where’s
And how’s
And why s
The reason are simple
But the not fair
Life is unbearable
Tryin to remember the
Bliss ..vividly seeing
A kiss but with?
Enough of this
I look at like
Whats gonna
Be will
One day it will
Pure bliss…

When/Win

Knew this was gonna happen, thats why I wasnt even tryin to go there,
Some things are left alone for a reason, not trying to be apart of the prob,
Actions speak louder,The thunder and lighting, frighting I know,
And another thing I know is your full of snow,ha ha I have to sit and laugh,
Too much class to lash, to tired to get mad,so tired of gas filled people,
No where is my equal,try hard not to be, but can be jus as evil, so over it,
So done with more than one, a roller coster that ends,just to begin again,
Like MArvin Benagain,not trying to loose, im tryin to win, this cycle wont end,
But its my choice to blend, so then again..

ugh..

I can write,
With all my might,
But some things ,
Will never change,
Scream to the mountain top,
Make the world stop,
But some things are never seen,
Complications,
Regulation,
Self -destruction
What’s what,
Who’s who,
Which way is up,
Nothings ever enough,
Sacrifice with Sacrifice,
What’s left,
The rest?
Of what?
What’s worth ones,
All,
Their will to live,
To love to breath,
To love blissfully,
Without worry,
Who’s too say,
How far is too,
Or that procrastination,
Is an unknown sensation.
And is actually enjoyed,
Why cant good be bad
Or vice versa,

Mentally raped,