This time...?

I am not sure,
If it is because,
Its that time of the year,
But in my soul,
I
am
Starting......
To feel..
That fear...
Again
The one that
Lies
Deep within...
The one that..
I don ever
Wanna feel again.
Not the distance
But..
The actions
The things..
That happen again
The pattern
The lies
OHHHH
The lies
Then always lies a
Surprise...
That
I..
Am..
Jus..
Not..
Ready...
For
I feel it again..
Not because of thoughts..
Jus because of time...
Know that it
Happend
Around this time...
In this...this..
(*sighs)