Hesitating..

So many things,
I wish I could say,
To make it all go,
Away,

Thinkin of the things,
I cant do to show you,
That love is true,

Taking on the pain,
As if it were my own,

Knowin deep down,
No matter who is around,
You feel alone,

Unable to reach out,
And show you,
How blissful life can be,
Wanting to be,

Not able to use my power,
To break through the sheilds,
That question,

Hesitating..

....

I wont ask you to think of me
For I know,
You have many thoughts,
But will ask you to save me,
One beat of your heart's,
Symphony,
Simply
Beacause,
Of history.

i know

You know,
Because...
Things change...
Nothing is the same...
Become rearranged...
No more ease to the pain..
That hurts..
So good...
Never thought it would...
Moments are rented..
Until they ...
Find a home...
Everything is done..
In a much lower tone..
Almost of non-existance...

Sittin reminicin...
Felt it coming..
Expected it...
Knew it..
But still wasnt ready...
To let go..
Wishing I could..

No need in dreaming..
Cause never will it be..
A reality..

I now see!

Beautiful desire

Beautiful desires,
Inspire,
One to become,
Intrigued,
Into a plethera of thoughts,
Caught...

Inside a,
Implicit...
Mind trip that,

Abducts
All
Reality...
Sending it into a frenzy,

Aspiring..
The most..
Surpressed,
&
Forbidden....

Desires

Become inspired
From that deep
Down..
Fickering, Flamin
Fire..

That requires..
Only a thought
To be lit..

But once lit
Thats it...

Submitting..
To the..
Dominance..

Of Beautiful....

DESIRES

Clearly..

I am in love,

So deeply,

That at times,

Things I dont see clearly,

I am still learning,

And fighting,

For a love that is,

Untaited,

Being in love,

Is...

Like nothing else,

In this world,

It confuses you,

Uses you,

And is so strong,

That it leaves,

Brusies,

It can be like,

An illusion,

Leaving you,

With a brain,

Contusion,

Life seems,

To come as more,

Of delusion,

Then reality,

Finding yourself,

Doing the unthinkable,

Thinkin about things,

That shouldn be thought,

Or should they,

Thoughts and Feeling,

Are things,

That cant be controled,

Nor consoled,

Sometimes leaves the,

Heart cold,

But I am so In love,

That I try not to be,

Cause its not of me,

Or maybe shouldn be,

But its a part of me,

That is undeniable,

And I try ya know,

I try,

But..

I am in a love so deeply that I dont at times I dont think clearly,
And clearly I will do anything to protect it.......

RE-SOUL-UTION

Never have I understood,
What was so forgien,
About love and happieness,

Out of all the things in the world,
These are the only things I live for,
And laughter of course,
I am not sure why,
Its so hard to get,

Things happen,
Life happens,
But with all the things,
That happen,
The love that I,
Radiate,
Never seems too,
Loose its glow,
Now matter how,
Low,
One may go,

It seems that everyone,
Gets IT,
But me,
Unless its you,
In the equation,

Trying to find out,
How we got to this,
Situation,
Tired of crying,
And sleepless nights,

Trying to understand,
Why we fight,
Trying to get to a place,
Of peace and,
Find the pieces,
Of me,

I am HERE,
And will always,
Be,
But where are you,
Too me,

Emotions with,
Others I see,
Never with me,
Loved you for soo long,
Before,
Me,
Always,
In everyway,
And its funny,
Cause you might feel,
The same way,

So my question to you is why,
Do we continue to play,
"House"
As some would say,
Action speak louder then,
Words and I feel like,
My actions shout,
Scream,
Jump,
Carry on,
And about,

But the thing is..
ITS ONLY MEE...
Like I am the ENEMY
Feeling like a,
Genmy...

Fustrated cause I,
Feel like you aint into,
Me no more,
After all the,
Turmoial,
U put me through,
Ok at one point,
I hurt you too,
Turmoil,
It wasnt,
If you ask me it really,
Wasnt nothing,
On my part,
But trust hasn been there,
From the start,
So why did we start,

Thinking with hearts,
And not minds,

Wishing I could turn back,
The hands of time,
U know
Rewind,
Try to find,
Where we went wrong,
Feeling like a love song,

Tryin to stay strong,
Hold on,
Cause see I,
Live for love,
And I believe that,
The love here is true,
But I dont even to seem,
To even get and effort out,
Of you, Feeling
Constued...

In a mood,
In a state,
That I dislike,
Because I have not,
An ounce of HATE,
So much love that I,
Could combust,
Exreamly overwhelmed,

LIFE IS TOO MUCH!

Unable to focus,
On life its self,
For you are,
A major part,
Afraid that this will stop,
Non stop,

Am I thinking,
Trying to find the soulution,
They shoulda put shit like this,
In the constitution,
So that I can have a,
RE-SOUL-UTION....